Summer time reminds me so much of the racial memories which connect me to the history of slavery
which by the way is still running strongly in both my blood my interactions
and my feet damn it..........
When it is really hot outside it forces me
to look backwards to another time
to another place
look ..................
i just came from outside
its got's to be a hundred degrees
got's to be
i went for my daily walk to the corner store
to stock up on needed items
normally
i hate the mornings
i don't like morning people,
drinking their coffee
all dressed up with no where to go
don't like them
so walk out my door
and get hit with the heat of a blast furnace
i feel like i am walking on the salt flats in the desert
i feel like a dead man walking
a old negro walking
i feel like sojourner truth
when its hot
yup walking in the desert
again
except
instead of cactus
their are Brazilians
and they are over the place
sitting standing
spitting
fully in the sun
celebrating the heat and nature
life and love
celebrating nothing at all
but what else can poor folks do
but celebrate
its one of the opiates of the poor
ok I
hate them
hate them
i am walking and my new hair do
is getting moist
my hair is changing
black folks
don't like to get their hair wet
for a reason
it takes allot of work
to sculpt this shit
and it cost money
my mother used to say
that black folks never get head lice
because we put so much stuff
in our hair
that nothing could breath in that
concoction
this is a true storey
anyway
all the stuff we put in our hair
thank you Miss walker.........
for our legacy
anyway
i am walking
and the
Jeri curl juice
is starting
to run down my neck
turning into chicken grease
frying me
frying me
i am almost screaming
but i walk on
in the hated sun
i know why caged birds sing
i also know why Fred Sanford
was always dying
i cant take much more of this
Elizabeth..................Elizabeth
I'm coming
anyway
i know why
in my past life i was a house negro
they couldn't beat me to stay outside
in the heat
Brazilians stop me all along
the way
singing the songs of the heat loving
peons
while i walk and bake and conspire
to kill half the world
i need a riot
some thing to tear up
the heat is making me scream........
i am delirious
i finally get to the corner store
the ghetto store
i am soaked
and so is every one else
every one smells of stale beer
and heat and poverty
and i am in my element now
i get a little jolt knowing that
i am not alone in my misery
negroes at least half of them
my people the house negroes
don't like this heat
we either don't got no air
or we cant pay for it
we are not by the water
and the whole city
smells of garbage
my neck is killing me
turning tender from
its over cooking
you got red necks
and black necks
did you know that the term red necks
came from the scarves that union coal miners wore
i would rather just think
of bull conners with his fat red neck
but that is my pathology
a middle aged fat black mans
drama
anyway
i was a house negro
hiding in the shade
why those other slaves
the field negroes baked in the sun
screw them its hot
i am there
telling Miss scarlet
not to let the sun burn
her
fanning myself
bitching muttering and sweating
alternating between singing swing low
and ground up glass
lord lord
the dumb slave masters
are too dumb to even notice
that my fat ass
is taking to many trips to the cool basement
for supplies
Yup a house Negros
i look around the ghetto store
and notice that its hotter in the store
than outside
and now i know why
\we were slaves for so long
the food is wilted
the bread looks like a Petri dish
and the great selection of junk
cup cakes,potato chips, and devil dogs
are about to float off of their respective shelves
because decomposition
creates a byproduct of different lighter
than air gases
anyway this junk food
is enough
to ensure your admission into
the diabetic clubs of our selective
gene pools
these dumb Dominicans
in their quest to save money on electricity
by not having any Ac
are losing half of their product
any body else who worked in a store
with this much heat
would be dead
but these are Dominicans
love it
all they need are palm trees
i look at them with hatred
for not having any ac
then i walk on
i see the new high income housing
that is being built
is almost done
they put these beautiful
buildings
right next to the projects
Pennington court
all i can think of
is that this is inventive
and it will change the neighborhood
the hood rats in the projects
are looking at this new building
soon to be flooded with well off
white folks
i wonder what they are thinking
i got it
Food
food
anyway i lurch on
get out of my way
move
move
staggering
hating Africa
and loving the white man
for getting me out of it
no i was not Kunte kente
he was a field negro
he kept on running
what what
now this house negro
couldn't make it ten steps in this heat before being caught
i like the shade
i make it back to my house
and look at all of these tropical folks
basking in the warm
hell
the hot glow of the sun
i return to my windowless room
and imagine
my days in the cool cellars
of the plantations
where i was bred
an thank god for the coolness
for the darkness
that my hideout provides
i feel like Harriet tugman now
oh never mind
she could walk for days
sorry for the mix-up
my people where home
cooking grits
anyway
i like the snow
as a old man once told
me
it kills the germs
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