What Happened ?

 

 

My world is shrinking.

This middle age thing

Is

Some thing special

I wake up most days

And

Before I sit up

Too quickly

Like I used too

When everything worked

I start sitting up

Gingerly

Hoping

No praying

That I haven’t left any body parts on the pillow

That I haven’t swallowed any

Of my loose teeth in my sleep

I try to reassure myself

That I am really waking up in my bed

And not in some alternative universe

Like heaven for instance

Middle age

Every thing is moving so fast now

I have trouble crossing the street

The cars move quicker now

I think

In any case

I have no idea what kind of cars they are

Any way

I used to know cars

GTO, chevys

What happened?

That’s the quote

Of most of my days

What happened?

Young people talk to me now

And they sound like roaches

Or insects

Buzzing around in my head

I have no idea what they are talking about

Less information

Is getting in

And I am glad for that

I am tired all the time

I nap on the bus

On the train

In my car

I drool

I Snore

My stomach makes noises

That I am convinced that no

Human being can make

Some times I talk to it

Thinking I might have a alien

Growing inside me

And if I am not in my bed

I wake up from a nap fitfully

Shaking my self alive

And the world and its follies’

Bore me now

News of death and mayhem

Just causes me to click my tongues

And mutter some thing like old lord

As my mind wanders on to the next subject

Usually

It’s about where I left my glasses

Or my pipe

Or my keys

Or my mind

What’s happening?

The world is self destructing

And we have a black man as president

Perhaps I didn’t really wake up today at all

Perhaps I am still sleeping

But it’s a good dream for once

In the old days nightmares

Would wake me up

Almost screaming

Now they come

And they are warm and cozy things

If I can still feel fear

I am still alive

The real world scares me more

Wondering if and when I wind up eating cat food

Will it be tainted by some

Chinese additive

Damn I cant even be reassured

In my misery

It’s moving too fast

What happened?

What happened?

Ok I can’t write long any more

I need a nap

Hopefully every thing will be there when

I awaken

And if not

So what………………

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