Happy New Year

Happy New Year

Holidays aren’t always the best time of year for me

For many reason’s

But for other reason

I am still glad they are here

Holidays

Tend to make me reflective

Introspective

Moody and brooding

New years of course is the line in the sand

For me

I can’t stand the drinking or drunkenness

Damn I am getting old

I won’t get on the path train

Because at my age my nerves

Are so bad

that any one mumbling any thing

Is taken as a personal affront

And every one expects so damn much from this silly holiday

I just want some good cookies, milk and a nice movie to watch

I just want to

take inventory of me and my body

Checking to see what is still there

And what has changed beyond recognition

Once a year I stand naked in front of the mirror

and look at what I have become

It’s enough to keep my clothes on for the rest of the year

But it is the ultimate reminder of

How times moves on

And carries a lot of your mind and body with it

It is also a time

To remember all of those

Who aren’t here any more

To toast them

To honor them

And then to turn to those who are still kicking

And pray for strength

And wisdom and better times

For them and theirs

It’s a hard year this new year

I can look and take an inventory of the missing

Homeless people

That I used to talk to and some times feed

To remind myself

Of how lucky I am

My favorite saying has always been

“There but for the grace of God Go I”

So happy new years

Take a good look at yourself

Love yourself warts

Love handles and all

And most of all

Don’t look in the mirror

Again

Until next year

Happy New Year